May 22, 2011 — 1 comment(s)
well, i think, going to college, is a big step, no.. huge.
As you may know, i moved here frm Jogja, majoring IS in UI. i lived here alone.
I know it seems weird to bring this up again, because i'm not that freshmen anymore, 2nd semester already, but..
Sometimes, when i woke up at my house in Depok, every single day, the air tasted different
It's like some burden, or duty, or whatever this thing weighed on me, it's creeping me every single day.

I started to question myself..

Washed my hands and face, brushed teeth.
"Apa bener ini semua yang lo pengen?"

Grabbed my towel and took a shower
"Lo ngapain kuliah disini?"

Dressed up, Made cereal
"Apa beda kuliah disini ama Jogja, Semarang, or Bandung?"

Packed up bag, put on shoes
"Udah nyiapin tujuan?"

Shuffled my shuffle
"Nyobain hidup mandiri?"

Shut the door
"Mau jadi apa lo nantinya?"

it always hit me.
and me myself, are struggling hard to figured it out.
I know, majoring in UI are tough stuff. but then, I DO really want this am i?

I know by standing in this, i stand my ground. UI and the capital of the country are land of opportunities.
I dont do much in high school, well maybe a little, but i realize i had fun.
but now, this is the real deal, growing up.
living in this place, INSISTED you to be fully grown, LEVELED UP
this is the point where i should learn,
i should struggle,
i should challenge,
i should survive.

People had dreams, right?
and so am i,
but those questions instill me vulnerability,
questioning my capabilities.

and then i realize, i am still craving for 'high-school' fun.
i play warcraft over productive times, leaning and avoiding some issues,
i procrastinated so much i lost my scholarship and exchange opportunities
i've been lazy and suck at some subjects.
i didnt give my best at all events and org i joined.

i need intervention, from me, and for me.
i know it takes time to fit in,
i need some hard slapping, wake up call.

and i realize, i waited, and i kept pausing stuff. questioning, whilst opportunities and chances passed by
bright seniors got what they want, praised, and they LEVELED UP
they relentlessly motivated me, indirectly

i need to be as close as much, what they achieve,
whilst the internet kept trolling things about the rapture thing,
i guess i found my starting point.
lets just hope the shadows not that itchy anymore

Hoppipolla by Sigur Ros

May 16, 2011 — 0 comment(s)

I wish the lyrics weren't Icelandish or whatever the lyrics was on..
but still... this song is killing

Computer Festival 2011

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Blogging  Competition Compfest 2011

KOPHI, a youth movement! National Congress 2011

May 1, 2011 — 0 comment(s)
Evening, dalam kesempatan kali ini gue akan menceritakan sedikit tentang KOPHI dan event besarnya tahun ini, sedikit aja.

So, I joined this NGO in January of 2011, endorsed (woelah) by Mia, a friend from a friend.
Luckily got in Public Relation staff,after. Well, not much of a choices, to be blunt.
Reason? Jakarta is a big city, as a capital of the country, this city gives you tons of opportunities. In such a young age, getting involved in a big, inspiring, and nature-friendly NGO are one of so many single step i should take, road to achieve things.
Basically, Kophi are consists of college students frm Jabodetabek. Led by Cea from London School, we aim to be the biggest youth-empowered eco-friendly NGO in Indonesia

Out yet biggest event this year, are the National Congress.
Pasted from Kophi's website;

"Kongres Nasional yang akan dilaksanakan pada bukan Oktober 2011 ini bermaksud untuk mengumpulkan para pemuda, terutama mahasiswa yang peduli lingkungan dan ingin membawa perubahan bagi lingkungannya. Jadi Kongres Nasional ini merupakan puncak dari keseluruhan acara KOPHI selama 1 tahun. KOPHI akan mencari perwakilan anak muda dari setiap provinsi di Indonesia melalui seleksi dengan cara menilai CV dan proyek yang mereka ajukan untuk daerahnya. Mereka akan mendapatkan training, workshop, dan seminar mengenai lingkungan dan pengembangan kapasitas kepemimpinan di selama 3 hari Jakarta, dan 1 hari terakhir yang merupakan festival yang dapat dihadiri oleh anak muda dari seluruh Indonesia.
Selama 3 hari itu, mereka akan dipilih menjadi Pengurus Regional KOPHI dengan masa jabatan selama 1 tahun, yaitu 2011-2012. Mereka yang hadir di Kongres Nasional tersebut juga harus menjadi agen perubahan untuk daerahnya. Mereka harus mengaplikasikan proyek yang mereka ajukan dengan mengajak anak-anak muda dan komunitas di daerahnya, serta mengirimkan progress report setiap bulan. Diharapkan peserta akan membawa perubahan yang positif bagi lingkungan sekitarnya."

So, be prepared :D